Feelings of unworthiness overwhelms the self, consuming every available energy just to think and make the poor self feel better. Confiding in another soul seems useless; all you get back is nothing but angst as they don't want to hear anything about you and your struggle. They think you're overreacting - you've always showed them you're functional. All you want is to be treated with love and care as though you're fragile like a chandelier. It sounds...clingy. But being your own pillar of support with hopes that someone will one day make you feel better, you just want to give up.
You yearn to live in the past where although you struggled, you could find happiness when you look or get to talk to them. Now you don't feel anything except disappointment and sadness. Have you always been on their minds? Do they love you like how you love them or is it just a daily habit for them to remember you, to love you? What are you lacking? Have you not tried enough? Why can't you be like all the other girls out there? You don't even look good, to start of with. What makes you think they'll love you for who you are?
Unfortunately, even your personality and attitude sucks. Garbage. You get angry, you get violent. You don't understand. As they say, you refuse to understand, to give in. You are close to being a narcissist. You might be one without realizing.
You are of no significance.
Everyone else is above you.
Yours Truly.
